As we go through a series called "Revive", we want to show that in the midst of chaos, confusion and complexity that we have a God who revives his people and empowers his people to bring forth life. This is Kristina Mora's testimony on how God has revived him.
When I was twelve years old, I could not believe I had never heard of Jesus before. How could he be so great and I never heard his name?
Those were the questions rushing my mind as the Sunday school shared during our first visit to church. We had just moved to Texas when, by God’s grace, my parents had chosen to reconcile their marriage after years of struggle in our home. Over the next weeks, God captured my heart after pursuing me and it was all I desired. I dived into relationship with him as he spoke truth into the hidden places of my heart. He provided me community through our church and faithful leaders to speak into and care for me. Throughout middle school, high school, and college He invested well- always fully aware of the full picture.
During my later years at Baylor, the Lord brought a young guy into my life who began pursued me. We began dating and sought to honor God as best as we knew how in every aspect of our relationship. He invited me to visit his family in Colorado to meet his parents so we could move toward being married. Upon returning from that trip, a series of events happened of which he moved back with his family. He broke up with me over the phone on Valentine’s Day of my senior year at school.
I was devastated, feeling rejected, filled with pain, and disappointment.
Although life went on with graduation and starting my career, in my heart I found it hard to recover. But God spoke two things in that time: First, Love is a choice and second, Romans 8:28 “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”
Although my friend did not make the choice to love me, Jesus chose to love me and choses to again and again everyday.
The recovery time from that disappointment took much longer than I expected. Although I could understand the circumstances and accept the truth, my heart ached. This breakup came with graduation from college and moving to a new city.
The pain from the disappointment and the fact that I was not tightly knit into a church community in my new city brought me to a crossroads. God's desire is for us to in community and willing to be vulnerable with another. That hasn’t always been easy for me, and in that season I decided to leave and go my own way.
Isaiah 53:6 says, “All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned-every one-to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him [Jesus] the iniquity of us all.”
It would be two years of leaving and going my own way, but Jesus remained faithful and pursued me in the midst of my running. All the people I spent time with who didn’t know or love Him, all the places I went that did not honor who He truly is, but He never left me.
At one low point, I remember crying out to God one day asking for Him to take me back, but I felt so lost, I just didn’t know how to get there.
After that prayer, nothing changed - or so it seemed.
I was working as a barista, and began a relationship with a young man who regularly came into my coffee shop. He was not a believer, and I had made a decision not to date another Christian guy again.
But the more we dated, the more the desires returned for a godly husband and a godly family.
God was on the move.
One day, we were both invited to a baby dedication at a local church. As hesitant as I was, I decided to go. The next and following weeks, my boyfriend decided to go to church again and again, and each time he invited me to come as well, but I declined every time- it was too hard.
Then one Sunday, he sat me down to tell me he had surrendered his life to Jesus. He was immediately changed.
And it was that very thing, witnessing his salvation that reminded me of my own salvation. Psalms 51:12 “Restore to me the joy of your salvation.”
This opened the door for me to receive the healing and mercy I so greatly hungered for.
That was more than nine years ago and that young man is my beloved husband Allan.