God Can Handle Your Mess
Have you ever had one of those moments where you feel like you just want to explode? Like all of those emotions on the inside that have been piling up are dying to get out?
What do you do in that moment? Do you keep suppressing the emotions you are feeling and hope they will go away? Do you indiscriminately bear your soul to the next person that you see?
Inconveniently enough, my emotions sometimes feel the need to be expressed when I’m out and about. In that situation, my frequent place of solace is my car. It’s quiet and it gives me a private space to process. It also sometimes leads to what I call a car sobfest.
Don’t be surprised someday if you are in parking lot and accidentally glance inside the car next to you to discover me there, with the driver’s seat laid back and me having a little moment. Don’t worry, I’ll be okay soon. Just needed to have a good cry!
That may be a little dramatic, but it helps me to just let it all out. When the frustration, disappointment or emotion-of-the-day builds up, I need to feel safe to process my feelings.
A quiet car is only one part of that. I need someone that I can talk to that I can trust. Someone that understands me and can comfort and encourage me. Sometimes a trusted friend is not available or I only have a couple of minutes between activities, but thankfully God is always available.
Psalm 62:8 says "Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us."
In the midst of the craziness of the day I can always find a safe place in God. I can trust him with the secrets of my heart and pour my heart out before him. He is my true place of solace.
It’s so freeing. Pour in this psalm means to spill, to gush or cast out. Sounds cathartic, right! This scripture grants me permission. Permission to be unfiltered when I talk to God, to be extremely honest when I share my feelings.
I don’t have to approach the conversation having everything figured out. I don’t have to say, “Father, I’ve thought about this for a couple of days now and I have identified my problem. I feel (insert emotion here) because of (insert circumstance here).” You don’t have to do that. It’s ok to be messy. Pour it out and trust him to clean it up and make something beautiful out of it.
When you feel angry, tell God! You can even tell him “I am so angry at you.” Don’t worry, you aren’t going to tell God anything he doesn’t already know. There is power is acknowledging what is on the inside, and letting it out. It will unburden your soul.
As you release your pain, anger, frustration or grief, God is big enough to take it. As you express your burdens to him, an amazing thing happens, you find refuge in him. You find shelter in the storm. You find solace.
He will help you find truth in what you are feeling. He will comfort, console, weep with, and encourage. Jesus sympathizes with us and has made a way for us to approach God’s throne with grace and confidence so that we may receive mercy and find grace in our time of need (Hebrews 4:15 -16).
Pouring out your heart to God doesn’t guarantee a resolution to your pain or a change in your circumstance, but it does allow Him in. And that makes all the difference.
So there you go, you have permission. Let it out! Raise your voice, have a car sobfest. Then, once it’s all out, continue to trust him, take comfort in his character and allow him to be your unfailing refuge.